Thursday, July 17, 2008


As you can see I have not blogged in a really long time. My heart is just broken and numb. Our hopes of having a 2nd daughter or sibling for Gabby is becoming very unlikely. We are pursuing Foster/Adoption also right now. I am taking the PRIDE classes which you need to F/A. We are both scheduled for CPR training and Blood Born Pathogens class. Is my heart completely into this ? NO!! I am scared to death that we will receive a child that is not Legally Free. This means that they are on the way to terminate the parents rights. Usually this can take around 18 mos. and longer. My fear is that they (DSHS and the parents) will fix their family issues and we will be left with a big No HUGE hole in our hearts.
Can I do this to us and my daughter? I 'm not sure.

I'm at a loss for words. Time to go now.


1 comment:

redmaryjanes said...

I completely understand how you are feeling. It is so uncertain right now in IA. I do know that some families are having great luck with traditional US adoption. I also know a family that has adopted two sibling groups and two different times through foster care and are doing very well.
Hang in there.